Dazzling and Empty

So I havent done this in a long time, most likely because I felt like only emotional nerds write on blogs, but my fingers are itching to write something, like, somewhat meaningful. Maybe well be able to get something out of this!
Changes since June (or July, whenever my last post was...)
1. I am now a blonde.
1. I have not one.... but two! jobs!
3. and i have no time to write meaningless stuff on a website that nobody really reads anymore.
4. I realize I am quite a bit more rebellious than I used to be...
5. I am tyring to decide between a good life, and a bad reckless life. Im leaning towards reckless. But the good life is what Ive always lived... and WHERE THE HELL has it got me.
6. I kind of want to move out, but I cant until im 18. But then, BAM, its happening.
I havent even touched my bible since creation.
Everybody around me is being dramatic, and i miss being younger.
The only thing that unconditionally loves me in this house and shows it, is my dog. And, just yesterday she chewed up my favorite shoe.
And you kno that one moment where eveyrbody messes up to bad, and they have to admit they did something wrong, and move on... not just cover it up....
after all the shit ive been getting into, im so afraid about what thats going to be.

I hope to God nobody reads this.