Dazzling and Empty

So I havent done this in a long time, most likely because I felt like only emotional nerds write on blogs, but my fingers are itching to write something, like, somewhat meaningful. Maybe well be able to get something out of this!
Changes since June (or July, whenever my last post was...)
1. I am now a blonde.
1. I have not one.... but two! jobs!
3. and i have no time to write meaningless stuff on a website that nobody really reads anymore.
4. I realize I am quite a bit more rebellious than I used to be...
5. I am tyring to decide between a good life, and a bad reckless life. Im leaning towards reckless. But the good life is what Ive always lived... and WHERE THE HELL has it got me.
6. I kind of want to move out, but I cant until im 18. But then, BAM, its happening.
I havent even touched my bible since creation.
Everybody around me is being dramatic, and i miss being younger.
The only thing that unconditionally loves me in this house and shows it, is my dog. And, just yesterday she chewed up my favorite shoe.
And you kno that one moment where eveyrbody messes up to bad, and they have to admit they did something wrong, and move on... not just cover it up....
after all the shit ive been getting into, im so afraid about what thats going to be.

I hope to God nobody reads this.

Dossvedanya. Goodbye.

Listening to: Honey and the Moon from the OC soundtrack
You wouldnt think so, but LISTEN TO THE OC SOUNDTRACK! It has amazing songs:]
Oh! And Then There Were None is a great band, their newest album is fanastic! They are more techno/rock so its VERY catchy. I will give you an update on which my favorites are, becuase at the moment I cant decide. Thats how good it is!
Lately, Ive been writing a lot about music on here. But I think if you get to know me, music is one of my passions, and I love to share it with other people. I can carry an antire conversation around one song, because you dont realize until you think about it, how much work it took the person to write the song. They thought about it forever, and evereything they tried, they did it to make the song better. Its also an insight into the artists mind, and they're something you can learn from.
SO: Ive thought seriously about my novel that Im going to write (I know! Im so nerdy, I want to write the Great American Novel. I HATE english too, so I have no idea why. I think its because writing novels you have more freedom to write however you want.)
SUMMER is definetley looking up:] Its change!

Can You Help Me Out Next Time?

Oh my goodness! Escape the Fate!
They are such a good band, why havent i heard of them sooner?!
listen to them only if you like hardcore music. That happens to be amazing.
I swear it, you wont be dissapointed!
Especially their new CD: This War Is Ours. The two tracks you should listen to:
Something and Its Just Me. Something is more mainstream, but has amazing vocals, and Its Just Me has more of a unique twist to the instrumentals, and uses a different approach to catch your attention.
OVERALL: amazing album! Please listen to it, and ENJOY it!
Today I went to BG village, just to do some exploring while Jaclyn was in her guitar lessons, and after a long struggle of trying to start the car (while it was in neutral. I swear I only cause problems for myself!) I went to buy a smoothie at Blue Castle Coffee, the new shop that just opened there. Guess what? I have a new obsession! It was CHEAP and probably the BEST strawberry smoothie I have ever had. Please stop there if you have the chance, even though its almost impossible to find, just like the rest of it.
Some memories from JUNIOR YEAR I will never forget:
1. Hanging with woodland kids, I love you all! Alyssa, Corban, Terah, Ryan, Emily, Ashley, you guys are so awesome, I wish I had more time to spend with you this quarter:]]]
2. Bakery days with Mandie, when I would argue with the poor Asian cashier, about what eveyrthing cost, even though he was ALWAYS right. At least we became friends.
3. CAM KIDS! Especially spring quarter: Brianna, Grace, and Bryan, it was so much fun getting to know you guys better!
4. Making new friends, and getting closer to older ones. OH Heidi I prollie couldnt have made it through this quarter without you, thankyou for being my substitute mother lol. AND KATIE I am so glad you came to clark, im so excited for next year! it will be fun!
5. Jaclyn keeps on listening to this 30 second clip of this new Tokio Hotel single and its really obnoxious.
6. SOCIOLOGY and LIFESPAN PSYCHOLOGY! The best classes ever, with the coolest people:]]
7. Stupid stalker teachers. ALL IM SAYING. (probably not the best of memories.)
8. Jamba Juice.
Have an amazing summer EVERYBODY, Im so glad we get a break! Have fun you guys:]]
OH a good summer song: Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillait, which im sure most of you know:]

Surfer GUYs. ha.

this made my day, and i hope it makes yours:]]]

Random Thoughts of Sunsets and Rivers

Another recent story from FMylife.com
Today, I found out my mom paid my best friend $20 to be my friend when we were 10. FML
I think that would be rather heartbreaking... whos Mom would do that to their kid?
This has been a strange weekend and day so far! "I SO hate Consequences" lyrics by Relient K keeps floaitng through my head, except for what the problem that caused the consequences are, I am not yet sure of. From now on, I am just not going to do anything wrong. Becuase even the littlest thing tends to give me problems. No accidents or anything! I am going to be sooo careful. Maybe I just need to be wise? I have no clue! Whatever is going on, I have done something wrong someplace. Or maybe i havent... no i have. UGH I dont know! Im praying that this week just looks up though, Im feeling a little lost.
Things that have changed since this weekend:
1) Confidence.
2) Motivation.
3) Attitude.
I have no clue why, but it seems everytime I go there, I leave changed. Last time it was lifechanging: this time it was a reality check.
Its always the sunset though that changes everything.
i know this post mde no sense, probably to any of you, but now I think i know what the problem is. Maybe writing it down here helped. But i think things are going to change from here on out :]]]

I would LIKE a cowboy.

This is what I wrote on the way up to Quincy today!! (I was bored.)
(I am thankful I brought my laptop. Its like a security blanket I think.)
Right now, I am writing this on the way to Quincy. Apparently, we are now in the Dalles, because nobody gets pulled over by airplanes for speeding.Thats according to my Mom. You know we're getting closer to there anyway, because the trees are slowly starting to dissapear.We just passed a restauraunt called Roosters. Breakfast Lunch and Dinner, they prollie serve chicken or something like that.Sp: I have a new thought: that tickling isnt something you do to kids. Or adults. It just kind of annoys me. Revenge is Sweeter Than You Ever Were: by the Veronicas. An amazing song.Okay. All the trees have offcially dissapeared, and its only been like three or so hours. This reminds me of going to creation. Gah, ok dont think about that....How do people name cars? I mean, obviously you have to come up with something snazzxy, and original, that nobody has ever come up with before. It just seems like a heck of a pressure thing- ok, we have to come upwith a new name for this model before tomorrow.You would think they would run out of names. But i geuss thats why they make continuing models: like fords minivans, from windstar to freestar type thing. L-O-V-E is just another word i never learned to pronounce. K, so the secenery is actually quite lovely aloong here. And theres lots of water... well duh, I kinda think were going along the river.Gosh, there are so many cops along here. I changed my mind about driving, I like to speed toooo much.Of course, my moms right here, so I dont think I would be able to. goodness! A New Day Has Come by Celine Dion is a great song too.
So, since we dont have tv reception at my house (yea! But I dont mind it that much, however, if i was without internet, I do think I would be lost.) and we do now because we are in the a hotel, we are now watching... Huckleberry Hound (jaclyn says he has an awkwardvoice.)? And then (Jaclyns choice.) Trading Spouses. You can tell this is going to be one fabulous weekend.
SO yesterday me mandie and heidi went to go watch Hannah Montana. Which, i actually really liked! i feel awful for liking it... but its actually a pretty cute movie. Kind of cheesy in some parts... but admittedly i like it! (OH! The guy was the best part of the movie :P)
More until later:P Pics to come! Love you guys:]]
Oh. One more thing: Sometimes you need to change something, in order for things to go better. Often, it has to be your attitude.
For I know the plans i have for you says the lord. Plans to give you a hope and a future! -Jeremiah 29:11

Red Hair Dye and Firetrucks

I am waiting for MandaPanda to get out of class, and i have to kill like ten minutes, so I will write a very short post, and add photos laterr! (yes, I have this new picture taking obsession!)
Today my family went to the beach, without me. Yes, I have school, but I would have loved to gone! At least this weekend, I will be gone to Quincy for my cousins graduation... but then I will have to study for finals while I am there. Joy.
Last night, my sister and I were walking, down our driveway. We had just dyed her hair her typical bright red color, and she had this towel draped around her shoulder. It had lots of red hair dye, that could easily be mistaken for blood. Especially since it was all over her head too. While we were walking, an ambulance passes by. I was like "whoa! Jaclyn go hide in the bushes! theyre gonna think you had a head explosion or somehting!" So she put her head in the bushes. It was kind of ridiculous looking, since eveyrbody could plainly see her towel. But they drove by thankfully. Then a firetruck passed. I just kind of stared at the guy in the car (he was kind of nice to look at!) and then he smiled and nodded, while Jaclyn turned around. So, we talk about this guy for like ever, because he was a hot guy, and Jaclyn looked like she had been assaulted by an axe murderer. We didnt even comprehend until about seven minutes later, that an ambulance and firetruck had just headed down our driveway. You can see what our priorities our...
Time to go find mandie! Pics to follow:]]]]

Evereyone gonna be hit with the Boom Boom.

So I have officially decided that being polite doesnt pay off, when it means that you have to write a twelve page paper in four hours thats fourty percent of your grade. Especially when I already have: katies party, babysitting (12 hours babbyy!), jaclyns dinner, a test in psychology, and church on sunday. Hooray for no sleep whatsoever.
ON the other hand: what I am doing this weekend will be fun. And its a good thing that I wont have time to go outside, becuase I would have. And just get more ridiculously =sunburnt than I already am. I even had a nice tan going on, i just had to spend that extra twenty minutes.
The worst part is its only on one shoulder. And its verrry red. I feel so stupid.
More pictures to come: prom and Katies party. And babysitting the awesomest kids ever.
Peace out homeskillet. (oh btw, I really liked Juno. The soundtrack=amazing!)
Some recent movies I have watched that I figure I would comment on:
The Boy in the Striped Pajamas. -saddest movie ever. Watch it and you will cry. Its not even worth it unless you like being emotionally disturbed. Not for mothers or expectant mothers.
Bolt- funny movie. The hamster is the best part- kind of a turn off if you do not especially like Hannah Montana. WATCH INSTEAD: Monsters vs. Aliens.
House- not anything special compared to the book. The ending totally ruins the whole point of it. Watch if: you are interested in acoustic Anberlin being the only real songs on the soundtrack and if you like cheesy actors and not that scary bad guys.
Prom Night- entertaining- but prollie only becuase I am a girl. its kind of a chick flick. Its not even scary like its supposed to be. If you like scary movies, avoid this one, because you'll prollie laugh the whole way through.
Pearl Harbor- I know its old! But i have a newfound love for this movie! Girls: the guys are very hot, and the love storyis amazing. Guys: well you have war. But this movie I think is for everybody, i think mostly the girls enjoy it the most though.
I think movies have to have a happy ending for me to like them. Hence, I dont reccomend all but two movies on this list.
happy birthday Jackie:love you best friend.

Lead the Way, Show the Light of Day

So today was goood:] Except for the fact that Jaclyn and Alex got mad at me because I used ranch dressing on my pizza. Apparently, thats like eating ketchup with salad. However, I think its normal to eat ranch dressing on pizza, and NOT normal to eat ketchup with salad. So, it is not at all the same. Apparently, appropiate anaolgies are not one of their strongest suits.
Today I thought was my psychology test. But it wasnt. Tomorrow is. So I wasted quite a bit of time studying for it, and feel like a wasted a morning. Which really I didn't cuz I have to take it tomorrow anyway. But it does feel like it.
SO.... I registered for classes. Jaclyn thinks this is a boring topic, and should not be discussed with anybody below parent status, but I think i will mention it anyway, because I am so excited for my classes:]]]
1. Biology (not so excited about this one....)
2. Spanish (again. not so excited.)
3. Drawing 1 (ehhh. should be intersting lol)
4. Swing Dancing (yay!)
5. Introduction to Early Childhood Education (SO EXCITING!)
The early childhood education one, I get to go to the Child and Family department and work with the kids, for my lab. Sooo much fun! Next quarter is going to be sooo easy and fun.
Honestly. PDA. Not in front of me. Its awkward. To all of my friends who are dating, soon to be dating, or may one day date and I get to randomly tag along. NO PDA.
My friend told me about this one site called fmylife.com. I dont think I will ever post anything on there, but some of the stories are kind of hilarious.

Today, I was at a mall. A woman stopped by me, said slowly and loudly, in Spanish "baño?" Knowing a bit of Spanish, I nodded and pointed the restrooms out for her. She then mutters about "dang Mexicans and their inability to speak English". I'm not even Latina. I'm Irish-American. FML

Today, I got a speeding ticket while driving to my court date for a prior speeding ticket. FML

Today, I got a call saying that my son was chasing all the girls in the class with his "Sword of Death" (haha. I dont even know why this is funny...actually I do. I took off the last part, becuase it was inappropiate. but without it i think its still funny.)

Today, my boyfriend of 2 years took me to get a tattoo done with his name on. He paid for it. After it was done he told me it was over between us and he thought it'd be a nice reminder of him for me. FML this one almost made me cry.

Today, my boyfriend and I went to a Taylor Swift concert. At the concert they put up a sign that said "Scream if you love country boys." My boyfriend took one look at it and started screaming. FML haha! oh thats so sad. but funny?

Today, I met a really cute guy at work. He asked for my number, and I wrote it down on a piece of paper. After looking at the paper, he crumpled it up, yelled "Do you think I'm stupid? I know the rejection hotline when I see it", and walked away. It was my real phone number. FML
and these are just some of them:]]]
its actually sad though, that Im reading these. They're funny and all, but doesnt it feel kind of like an invasion of privacy? I dont think I would want the whole world reading these, even if I didnt know who they were, and they didnt know who I was. Have some dignity, and promise me you wont ever post your most embarassing moments for all of cyberspace to see! Becuase, really, people just laugh at you. Its so sad.
I think im in need of a strawberry smoothie. It sounds wonderful right now:]]]]

He Gallantly Chickened Out.

HAHA! K so i have to blog about this: you know the part of Monty Python where Sir Robin runs away and the monsters "eat his minstrels"? (You know, the dark age muscians or whatever?) Well this is a direct quote from Jaclyn:
"OH! I get it now! His MINSTRELS! They ate his minstrels! I thought that was a naughty part of his body...."
lol. i know its kind of distrubing, but i really thought it was funny.
SO: more music you should listen to:
You're Gonna Go Far Kid- The Offspring
Starstrukk-3Oh!3
Bohemian Rhapsody-Queen (can never get tired of the classics!)
These Boots are Made For Walking- The Coats
I love three day weekends. Except for the fact that I got nothing done. Except for decided what classes I was going to take- and even then Im not entirely sure what Im going to do lol!
Gottaa go study for my test! Lifespan test tomorrow:] OH and I get my paper back! I really hope I did well... I seem to always get B's on my papers here. Im not a good at Englsih at all!!!!
look up: www.mesomandie303.blogspot.com. you wont be dissapointed:]]]

You're Not That Pretty, I Hate That You're So Smart.

A couple of nights ago was prom:]]] and it was so much fun! I pretty much danced the night away. But i have to admit, Applebees was the best part of the entire night. We all did a lot of laughing.

SPACEMANNN!

"Can I have some more of this delicious lemonade?"

Even though it was a ridiculously small dance, and there were hardly any decorations I enjoyed it so much.

SOOO I was thinking I really need to get some more sheet music. I reallly need to. I am so bored of this old stuff, even though its fun to transpose it and make it into something new.... right now Im learning the piano solo of clocks by coldplay! Any other ideas??? (I really need some new worship songs to play too!!!)

Heres some photos (stolen from katiiie) more to come from mandie and me.

A Different Way To be

Well, this is probably going to be a slightly boring post, but I really like it when people do this for me. So enjoy, you wont be dissapointed!
My playlist as of right now:
1. Dreams- The Cranberries
2. Life in A Northern Town-Dream Academy
3. Lust For Life- Iggy Pop
4. No You Girls-Franz Ferdinand
5. I say A Little Prayer For You- Aretha Franklin
6. Kids-MGMT
7. Fly On The Wall-t.A.T.u.
8. Flightless Bird, American Mouth-Iron and Wine (love this song!!)
9. Bruises-Charlift
10. You Don't Know Me-Ben Folds and Regina Spektor
11. Dont Trust Me- 3Oh!3
12. A Little Longer-Brian and Jenn Johnson (best worship song ever!!)
13. 75 Brazil Street- Pitbull (remix)
14. Love Song (from Moulin Rouge)- AMAZING!!
15. Show Me What Im Looking For-Carolina Liar
16. Full Moon-The Black Ghosts
17. and can I just say that this one song from Anberlin is amazing. I just cant remember what the name of the song is. but it gave me chills. (Its from the Cities Album.) So just listen to the entire cd, becuase the whole thing is amazing!
LISTEN TO: The new newsboys album. quite frankly, im obsessed with it. ;p

Together In All These Memories

Have you ever wondered why am I doing this? Is it even worth it? Prollie if you've existed long enough on this planet you have. I thought that this ENTIRE WEEK. I think this has been one of the strangest weeks of my life, like no joke. NOT FUN.

On a more positive note, I am sooo excited for prom! I got my dress, and so did Mandie. Mines very pink, like hot pink, and bubbly! I just need a couple of accesories to go with it. But Mandies is gorgeous! Its an emerald green with a bedazzling jewel that is os amazing! And Katies is silver and sparkly. OH its going to be great.

I hate fridays. Like, the wonderful three hour break. Woooot. This is another one of those moments, like why am I doing this. Goodness.

The sunshine has given me incredible energy. I love it! This weeekend=tanning. And homework. And cleaning.

Some random thoughts for right now:

Sundays going to be depressing.

Myspace is copying facebook, AND twitter. I dont think theyre going to be able to catch up though, i think facebook is better.

I learned in my psychology class that the oldest is typically the peacemaker...but mostly the one that starts the fights. I feel like a hypocrite.

Theres this one guy in the library lab that alwyas chews ppl out for being on facebook and myspace. And he stares people down a lot. I dont know what his problem is.

Is it just me, or are these really negative random thoughts?
Jaclyn broke boards at karate. TWICE. Im so jealouusss! I quit at the wrong time, seriously!

Just half an hour more! And then its the weekend. I need one so much!

I'll Fly Away, Oh Glory. (right now if you want.)

I am definetely learning a lot this week, even though its only Tuesday, Im kind of worried what the rest of the week as in store for me, since these past two days have been so awful! And to top it all off, this one thing today. Its wearing.

I think Im learning to be content. Im bored, I want something exciting. But maybe Im supposed to be right where I am, and something new is only going to last for however long, and then Ill want something new again. Im also learning to trust God more. Work on my problems, be patient and pay attention to here and now. Prioritize and be strong. Try and look for the whole story, and realize what you have. Dont be hard on yourself. And... there are consequences to even the littlest things.

Some lessons that we all need to learn, huh? Hooray...

Im just wishing I dont have to learn it like this.

The Barton Family, I am praying for you.

Love you Mom and Dad.

I'll Say A Little Prayer For You

I love Aretha Franklin! She is so classic freaking black woman its amazing.

And this is a good song you should listen to it:]]]

This past week has been an interesting one, and I think God has been testing me a lot. But I think its made me better, and I think I'm moreo n track with him than ever before. I hope it lasts, and there are still a few things I need to work through, but I have a feeling God's grace is working on me.

Im so excited about prom! I'm just worried that I wont be able to find a dress in time, since prom season is basically over, but Im hoping I will:] Im very excited. At first I was a little unsure, since Im going alone and all, but what difference does that make? Now I can dance with whoever I want to:]

I am going to my amazing Grandma's mother/daugher tea. I dont think the tea part is as amazing as my Grandma, because I really dont like the whole tea thing (in big groups. I like tea houises. Theyre nice and quaint), but they're actually fun with Jaclyn. Because she hates them just a bit. Which means, that she will be just a bit rebillious, and do something hilarious, and while everybody looks in horror, I will crack up laughing. Even though I dissaprove of the behavior.

OH and tomorrows mothers day. And I think we're going hiking... which even though I am pretty sure thats what we did last time, Im OK with that. Because it is another one of those things that Jaclyn hates.

But considering I also have to do:

chemistry homework

english homework

piano mixing

worship

clean my really messy room

practice piano like theres no tomorrow

AND study for my psychology test....

this is going to be a long weekend.

Which is why I am writing a blog post right now, right? Im such a procrastinator!!

Jaclyn and Me: Zac Efron vs. Hugh Jackman

Im blue, Jaclyns red.
This might be slightly inappropriate. I know I say I dont normally post this kind of stuff, but Jaclyn and me always talk about these kinds of things.
That probably wasnt good to say.
Enjoy amigos.

ME: SO today I went and saw wolverine. Can I just say that Hugh Jackman is the most amazing actor on the planet?

JACLYN: You just like his butt, like i liked mohammads on heroes.

Yea, but the thing is I actually got to see it in this movie. Tan line and eveyrthing. I but you wish you saw mohammaeds butt.

if i wanted to see mohammed's butt, i would just look up hindu porn on the internet.

K, now that we all know you have a secret fantasy of looking up hindu porn, Wolverine was great! It was extremely well done, and not just because it has Hugh Jackman, but it was cool. A Very cool movie.

yes i'm very excited to see it. but not because of hugh jackman. because he's like forty and that's like loving on ur friends dad which remind me of 17 again which is a movie I saw!!!

Oh gosh, I really want to see that too. But Hugh Jackman was voted sexiest man alive.

by thirty-forty year old women who read cosmopolitan cuz they have no sex life.

Well 17 again has Zac Efron who we all know is from High School Musical. Which is mainly for eighth grade girls, at least I can say Im rather mature.

DONT DENY HE'S THE HOTTEST GUY ALIVE! we ALL know he only did HSM for the money and because his gf's in it. he's not such a dork. If he were standing here, RIGHT HERE, BRIANNA, you would eat your words.

Actually, Jaclyn, he would not be standing here, becuase Gina would have killed him and married Vannessa Anne Hudgens.

So then I'd kill Gina's new wife and eat her for breakfast.

Um, yea, both you and Gina are a little bti creepy.

oh i would also give zac a proper burial.

I would have raised him back to life.

I quote "THATS A BAD HABIT!!!"

Not when its Zac Efron. Then its a act of....good intentions. Then I would marry him, because I saved his life, then I would run in celebrity circles, and I would meet Hugh Jackman, and ditch Zac Efron, and marry the sexy beast.

But in order to get there, you would have liposuction, implants, fake hair, plastic surgery, and you'd be a snob because you hang out with celebs so he wouldnt even know the real you.

but zac would..

and you ditched him.

Are you saying I need liposuction?


HO YA! nah jk because if you got liposuction, than the surgery might go wrong and it wouldnt have been worth it. because .... yeah.

I thought you were actually going to come up with something witty. I had that going very differently in my mind.

what were you expecting me to say?

maybe expansion on the implants.... or the hair.... idk, just something a lot better than that.

YOU HAVE A WEIRD LUMP ON YOUR BUTTOCKS!!!

Oh my gosh. no i dont. ewwww. thats so gross, ICK and not true.

i think it's cancer.

are you high???

your going to die. i'll be all for the butt cancer campaign.

HIGH ON JESUS!

you just answered your own questoin. and its good your high on jesus, because youll be going to see him soon with that hump on your butt.

At least Im not humping your butt.

at least... sigh...

i feel bad. that was slightly inappropiate. im sorry.

we should probably wrap up. i forgive you. just don't make offensive gay comments again. agreed?

Ok. I love you Jaclyn.

I hate your dog.

I named her after you.

Effing lucky me.

Let's Splash Yogurt Together

This weekend was pretty much amazing! My parents went on a romantic weekend to the beach, while my siblings went to my Grandma's, which left me and Jaclyn home alone. Heidi and Mandie spent the weekend with us, which made it even more wonderful! Heres a list of what we did:
1. Went to their Bible Study, and I really enjoyed it, every time I go I get something from it.
2. Watched What Happens in Vegas. Pretty much hilarious, and I think it would have been better if done differently, because the storyline was great! I dont like the way it played out though.
3. Watched Sixteen Candles. After they started dropping F bombs, and a couple of nudity scenes, I remembered that this movie was PG. Huh. John Cusack was so young in it though! It was cute:]
4. Went bowling on Saturday. and I did ok actually! I got one strike.
5. Went to the mall, while Heidi had her interview, and got shirts from American Eagle.
6. Went to A Taste of Asia (apparently, its right by Clark, but Im blind and had no clue it was there!) And I ate pretty much a lot.
7. Watched Australia! I really love this movie, but for some reason everybody else hated it. I thought it was amazing, but I think it was because of the scenery, it made the storyline more powerful than it would have been.
8. Went to Compass for church, and I loved the worship! I think it was only today, but it had a techno beat, which was something I had never heard of before, it was awesome:] The speaker was good too.
9. There was this one awesome thing which I will not say. Becuase its a secret:]
10. We did other things, but these were the ones that I will alwyas remember. And now everybody is tired, and I have tons of studying to do (Chemistry and Psychology test tomorrow!)
Hope everybodys weekend was amazing!
FAMOUS GINA QUOTE:
When I get older, me and my husbands are going to have so many romantic dates. In our bedroom. I meant like, Ill be in my pajamas, and then when i wake up in the morning, he will serve me breakfast. and then splash yogurt together. and then we are going to take a shower. in seperate bedrooms.
(Im sorry, i pick on Gina a lot, but shes so funny. I love her though.)

You Sang Me Spanish Lullabies

Today was actually a gorgeous day, and I really loved it. Its amazing how much of a better mood the sun can put you in. And I got a bit tanner! I am getting so obessed with it. I tanned a lot at Mandies, but now Im like "Oh! I have an hour, Im going to tan!" And why does it seem that when its hotter you get tanner? I doubt that thats true, but it seems like it should be that way.

I still have to write a paper for English, and I probably should write it now. I've been gone all day and I probably should write it... I just was thinking about this video, becuase I just saw it with Mandie and Heidi last weekend, and its so cute, and its not really that embarassing... like others I have of her, or even of me, but its so cute I'd thought I'd share it!! (And yes, she sucks her thumb at the end.)

(I Wish) Your Favorite Beauty Spoiled

I just came back from Mandies today! I really needed to get out of the house, so it was awesome. And I got a bit tanner.... which I know isnt saying much, but Im very happy for the little I do have lol! We also explored a lot, and I have decided that where Mandie lives is just rather creepy. I love her property, but I think that the school bus is just a bit creepy, and there are just a few stories... its kind of exciting though! It reminds me of another world. (Yes, thats just how far she lives out lol!)
Im appreciating more and more that warm, spring and summer feeling you get after a day of pure sunshine. I think thats where I thrive. The flowers, and the birds, I guess its kind of all jsut something that gives me the best memories. I think about that a lot when I do my homework outside, in my moms garden. And when I go to the park with Gina.
I think Im in a rather daydreamy mood lol! Its like my mind will be living in another story, and then Monday morning when school starts, reality hits. But its nice to imagine. Im pretty sure Ill always be like that. I like the other stories I live in-they are kind of exciting. But its good to know that sometimes happens in real life, those stories. I think Im still waiting for that something exciting to happen though. And Im not talking about romance or anything, Im just talking about something exciting. I'm really ready for something like that.
Goodness, I am so sad!

Happy Resurrection Day!!!

Easter Memories:

Me: "You guys, I love those Neopolitan candies. I ate all of yours I think."

Jaclyn: "No you didnt..."

Me: "Why?"

Jaclyn:"Becuase I hid one."

Me:"You hid one.... really?Why?"
Jaclyn: "I dont know...I just did."

Me:"So you just hid it randomly."

Jaclyn:"Yea. I dont really like it though...."

Me:"Then why did you hide it?"

Jaclyn:"I dont know. You can have it."

Me:"OK..."

"Gina rejected the bunny butt."-Jaclyn

Me (imitating Alex's convo with me): "Your so lucky you have the pink basket. I have a brown one with rainbows."

Jaclyn: No, you have the pink one."

Me: "No get it Im Alex. 'Your so lucky you have the pink basket. I have a brown one with rainbows."

Jaclyn:"No, you have the pink one. "

Gunner:"Mom, youd better run, the cops are here!!!"

Gunner (while on the Easter Egg Hunt):"I just love candy."

(The first time when Gunner sees Grandma):"Where are the trucks?"

Gina: "You act like a princess. That makes you a slut." (Yea, I do not influence her like that I swear.)

Other significant memories: Having too much candy, so we have to hide all the treats in the rainy outdoors. Everybody is soaked at the end of the hunt. Going to church for breakfast, and arguing with Clayton about acholol with Katie. Having a rather embarassing moment during worship. Johnathan trying the key on three cars, and randomly picking mine. On accident.

Ariana trying on everybodys shoes during the service. Coming home and finding Rosie gone.

Playing trucks with Gunner. Talking about Starbucks, and realizing how everybody is graduating already.

I love Gina! Isnt she cute:]] More pictures to follow!

Lifeline-Angels and Airwaves

I think Chemistry is actually really easy. Well at least so far, plus there isnt that much homework. The only thing I hate is the labs, and that you have to wear goggles for two hours. WAY TO GO DENTS ON MY FACE. Katie was telling me about this really amazing pair of sparkly pink goggles, and even though I am pretty sure i would look ridiculous, I would totally wear them. I dont like these green ones.

It seems like I have had nothing but chocolate lately. and I found somehting really disturbing about chocolate today, so it makes me feel weird. You would know why if I told you what I meant. But I only post appropiate things on here.

Easter was amazing! I love my family so much, especially my amazing cousins. They are the cutest little kids everl. And then the food was good, I think everybody had ham. Is ham a Easter thing? I never really thought about it... but everybody said they had ham yesterday. I guess it is a Easter thing. Huh.

This is such an amazing song! I really reccomend it. Their musical abilites are amazing... and they way they harmonize with vocals is just brilliant. You wont be dissapointed:]

So I am thinking this one thing is really cute. And its so awesome! Its about time...

We Unconsciously Let Others Do the Same

So yesterday was the first day of classes for Spring Quarter! And it was actually pretty wonderful lol! I think it was the sun and the warmth that made evereything better. But it was really nice seeing everybody again too. Im a little bit worried about Chemistry, but I think if I just buy the study guide Ill be ok, plus Alyssa and Emily will help me out haha.
Lifespan Psychology I have a big black woman as a teacher. bhahaha. (she even talks like a black woman-she calls that her ethnic self.)
I drove myself to Clark today! I totally thought I was going to miss the exit, but then I saw the big sign and I figured that it was probably it lol. So I did pretty good, and its STILL sunny! What could be better?! Haha.
Oh, today I get to go to ballroom dance with Amanda and Terah. I think a couple of other people are going, and Im excited! Except for Im wearing flip-flops, which means Ill have to dance barefoot. I hope nobody steps on my feet today lol. (Yea, I know I hated ballrooom dance before. That was just until the final actually.)
Im still thinking about writing my book... maybe I'll do that once i get home early from class today. Probably not. I also want to write songs too, but I dont have enough patience to come up with a melody and actually write it down. Goodness, that takes forever.
Ramble is offically over.

Black Dress with the Tights Underneath

I am ridiculously sick, but I am going to make it through this weekend! At least its going to be relaxing spending it at Mandies. No stress about school or anything, until three days. I think this spring break went by pretty quickly actually...

Today we went to BG cinema and saw Monsters vs. Aliens! Cute movie, and it had some funny parts... Bob is pretty funny, "And Im going to go back and be a gigantic woman." "Uhm, Im pretty sure thats Susan thats doing that..." "Well, then Im going to go live with Derek and be happy." "That would be Susan also." But it was a cute movie, I think Alex and Gina would have loved it. And until the mirror broke off (no clue how that happened) I didnt kill anybody or even get close to getting in an accident! Yay:]

Pictures of my first real drive (its sad, I know, but I had to document it) and I look so sick in the first one. Look at my eyes lol! The second one, I bought foundation at Fred Meyers and I looked much better. So do my eyes. The last one, Jaclyn took a pic of me driving. I just noticed that my hair has more body in the back than in the front. I never noticed that before. I actually think somebody told me that... was it Andrew? Or Ryan? Maybe it was Ashley.

Huh.

So Im a Chula Now? Jac: Gangsta CLASSIC

Funny quotes to remember:
"I think the only people that like snow are Hawaiians and...demons." (that would be me.)
"But Im a demon...." Jaclyn.
"Gina, stop making fun of Jaclyn just becuase she is now a vegetarian. You wouldnt eat the lamb on Chrsitmas remember?" (Me again)
"But thats becuase lambs remind me of Jesus. And i dont want to eat Jesus."
Oh and Gina's default for her account on this one site, is a dog humping a stuffed animal. She didnt know thats what it was doing, she thought it was cute. Its actually hilarious I think lol. Probably freaked all of her friends out.
Its snowing right now... and I did NOT plan on moving to Antarctica, so why all the snow in the middle of APRIL? Its so groady (haha Im using mandies word!) And Im sick, (only with a sore throat... but still!!)
If there is one thing in the world i hate, its snow.
Lisence to DRIVE tomorrrow! haha yay!
Ginas making us kids tortilla roll-ups. I just realized that our family does a lot of Mexican things, even though we are as pale as vampires. (We even talk to our grandparents in Spanish... so where are all the tanning genes? Why cant we just all speak english and be tan? NO we have to talk in Spanish... at least I got an A in Spanish because of it haha.)
And isnt it weird that we speak spanish all the time anyway, without even having any Mexican or Spanish genes? Im like mostly German. I dont know any German. This is really weird now that I think about it.
This weekend is going to be super amazing!! And about spring quarter starting next week, yea i kind of need it! I think Im just in kind of an off mood right now, so Im going to go run.

Ginas Survey (bahhaha!)

1. What is your occupation right now? Student
2. What color are your socks right now? pink and white stripes and it is awesome!
3. What are you listening to right now? Pink So what?
4. What was the last thing that you ate? my dinner taco soup!
5. Can you drive a stick shift? well i sure hope not!
6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Michelle
7. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Duh Yeah!
8. Where would you like to go on vacation? Egypt! *doing the egyptian dance*
9. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? FOOTBALL! GO SUPER BOWL!
10. What is your favorite drink? Starbucks! look a snail!11.die or hilight your hair?highlight my hair with sky blue! i am going to do that when i am 14 it will be the awesomest thing on earth!r favorite food? no actually i am sick of that but i love ice cream and...gummy bears!
13. What is the last movie you watched? uhh.... does Icarly and sponge bob count?
14. Favorite day of the year? fri. the 13 i always watch creapy movies and eat......GUMMY BEARS!
15. How do you vent anger? Screaming screaming and more screaming ugh i hate it when i am going through pub.16. favorite toy as a kid? Big bird! no actually i was so freaked out of him i would scream so loud! actually it would be.... well alot of stuffed animals!
17.. What is your favorite season? idk? winter cause chirstmas and spring cause easter summer because summer vacation and fall becuase my b.day is on it!
18. Cherries or Blueberries ? Cherries! what would you do without them! because bluberrys look like guts when you open them.... but cherries aren't better then GUMMY BEARS!!!!!!!!!
19. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? Ya e totally! who wouldn't?
20. Who is the most likely to respond? Kenzie Vanessa maddison and others... but those 3 i will know for sure!
21. Who is least likely to respond? my sises!
you have been with ur family in the same house for:all of my life! i kno it sucks!
23. When was the last time you cried?
dont tell....dont tell.... BUT GUMMY BEARS MAKE ME HAPPY AGAIN!!!
24. What is on the floor of your closet? every single piece of my clotheing!
25. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending to? Michelle ment her when i was 2 months old! then it would be kenzie!
26. What did you do last night ? ate popcorn and watched monty python!
27. What are you most afraid of ? GETTING BURIED ALIVE!!!!!AND SFERING OR DROWNING! but that doesn't stop me from swimming or eating gummy bears!
28. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers ? Cheese burger BABY!!!!! NO STOPPING ME!
29. Favorite dog breed ? pomeranian and Chiahha
30. Favorite day of the week? Saterday DUH!
31. How many states have you lived in? 1 1 and 1 but i want to move to Gummy beart land!
32. Diamonds or pearls? diamonds because i already have pearl necklasses
33. What is your favorite flower? Roses, tulips and................. the GUMMY BEAR PLANT!

Caught You (With Another Man In My Bed)

AHHH! So today I woke up to the answering machine. The person started saying my name in a really deep voice, and saying I was a bad girl. I knew it was somebody from church (because I have a cold today, and I want to babysit), and at first i thought it was Craig, because I was supposed to show up for worship. Then I thought it was Shane because I was supposed to babysit, and I just slept all through the morning and missed his ride or something, but then another voice came on that said "Brianna, Brianna, are you sick? Are you sick?" And then I realized it was just Clayton and Andrew. Then Jaclyn came on too. But it was really funny and scary at the same time. haha!

So today I get to babysit! I havent babysat those two boys in a long time! They're so awesome.

I am so excited for next quarter. I have no clue why. But I think its going to be fun! Except for I am not excited for Lifespan Psych, because it just sounds rather borringg. I hope its not. I just hope hes better than my last psych teacher, hopefully?

SO THIS WEEK: I have to:

1. Go shopping with Jaclyn, Gina, and i think Kelsie is coming.

2. Finish that book.

3. Complete my list.

4. Hang out with at least fifty dozen people.

5. CLEAN EVERYTHING! I hate everything being messy, yet, thats what it always happens to be.

The pictures at the top are little Nathan. Oh, those are my legs! They look better now. haha

All I Wanna Do Is (Gun Shot Xs Three)

I finally saw my grandparents today! It was really nice. It made me all excited for me to go to Mexico again! I hope i can go next year with Gina, it would be so amazing. But Grandma said her youth group was going to build a house, and maybe I could do that instead.. I dont know! I guess Ill find out, I just really want to go:]
Also, you know that book I was talking about writing? I have an outline! Well, through the prologue. And I have three characters and an evil villain too. I did this while Jaclyn gave me four tatoos (yea,,, sharpie I think she was bored) and ate Mexican Candy.
Ginas watching the show iCarly, just saying... that theme song is so annoying! But its better than most of the Disney Channel ones. If I ever have a show, which wont happen, Ill have an AMAZING theme song. It'll be a top priority, even though the show would probably suck lol!

The best poicture ever! Jaclyn where are you....?

If You Dream of Home Tonight

Lately I have been spending a lot of time at home. With the Rosie. Yea, I love her to bits. But here are all of the things that have been ruined because of her:
1. My heels, my favorite pair! That one made me mad.
2. My pink flats.
3. My moccasins.
4. My most expensive jeans.
5. My application for Papa Murphys.
6. My mp3 player- and it was brand new too. That one made me cry for days.
7. A library book
And all this is not including the stuff of my brothers and sisters own that she has ruined.
Dont you just love puppies....
Anyway, today is my drive! Officially. I am so happy! I am also spending the weekend with Mandie at her REAL house. haha, I have gone to both of her grandparents houses more than her own lol! But if that doesnt happen, I will be babysitting tonight and tomorrow is either the beach or seeing my wonderful grandparents again! Cuz they are finally home!
Basically, I just have to get through my drive today, and then things will start to look up.
I miss Amber.

Concerning Worship and Youth Group

So last night was youth group which was really interesting since we talked about worship a lot, and other areas where I guess our youth group could benefit as well. Even though I didnt speak up one bit, I was completely bursting with stuff to say!

1. I think our youth group could use some changes (shorter lessons, and more interaction definetely!), but i also think the youth could use a change of mindset? I dont know if thats the right word... but thats what I think.

2. Small groups= Good Idea.

3. People talking to one another is not a form of worship. Thats focus on you, not on God.

However, I do think it should be a joyful thing. I dont think its a natural consequence, its just something that worship is. You should be joyful to praise your Lord Jesus, right?

4. I think talking is ok (who doesnt want to say a few words during the service?), but please leave the sanctuary when you are having a real conversation. THIS INCLUDES adults too. (Sorry, but Katie is right about the judgement.)

5. Melody and Joy made very good points about taking the oppurtunity that you have and using it to glorify God whenver you can. I totally agree with that!
6. I just want to say: when I worship, I feel like dancing sometimes. hehe!

7. I do feel that the lessons are very long, but Noah's idea about the students leading sometimes is a great idea! what better way to learn more than teaching it yourself?

8. I do think our youth talks during worship(at church), but I dont think that it happens all the time. For our youth group worship, yea... we didnt take it seriously. We should have though.

9. Linda, I love what you have done with our youth group, and we learn a lot from you. I dont think its fair to you that you are the one who had to tell us this, when I think the parents should be the ones that do it. It isnt your responsibility at all, it is the parents I think! It puts a lot of pressure on you that shouldnt even be yours.

10. Why dont we do a section on purity? Lets talk about sex! haha just kidding. But i think it might be a good idea.

Well this is what I think. I definetely have more deeper thoughts about it, but I dont think i should say a lot of it. It just feels good to get my ideas out there, even though a lot of them may be wrong.

Tribute to Leotas Garden

I just realized that I have a love for old things. Like antiques, and books, old houses and even stories about elderly people! I love these things. Gardens, cooking and those types of things too. Maybe its becuase they remind me of my grandparents, and I really miss them. I have some of the most amazing memories with my grandparents, I think they are one of the best things God has blessed me with. I have decided that I am going to Mexico again with them next year, since its Ginas turn to go. It will be so much fun!

Oh and Easter! That will be fun. I love holidays too! I love it when the family gets together, although it doesnt happen very often. When everybody comes, my cousins and everybody, it is so awesome! I wish it happened more often. And the food is great! Rolls, and stuff like that. Its like the potlucks at my Grandmas church are the best potlucks I have ever been too. Somebody makes the best brownies. I have no clue who they are but they are amazing. (haha, green bean casserole Alyssa!)

And even though Jaclyn hates it, I love it when their friends say how grown up we are, and how much we look alike. Becuase I love their compliments. They always are very sincere.

OH, and the conversations! I love hearing about their past! They alwyas talk about how "back in the day" and stuff, but I really like to hear about that. It makes me wish I lived back then, instead of now. That would be so cool. And the other things they talk about, like their gardens, new recipies that they have tried, and about their friends and things.

And how my Grandams house looks with the cherry blossoms on that tree, and the strawberries that Grandpa alwyas gives us. And the creek, and all the bridges. And finding Grandpas golf balls. Hiding in the hedge. Walks down the road. Visiting their friends.

I really miss my grandparents.

I think when I am really bored, I get nostalgic. Oh well, at least its a more cheerful post than my last one :]

Hey World. Its Me.

So i know this is my second post today (pathetic I know) but i have more to say.
I like who i am. Im not a bad person, and I may not be the epitimy of popular, or even slightly popular, but that is basically who i am. Im tired of everybody trying to make tons of friends, and feeling that their only purpose in life is to be accepted by other people who make stupid choices and end up all just failing in the end. Where does it get you?
Nowhere.
And I think i may need a diary, becasue there just is a lot of stuff that I cant say on here, that I want to get out so bad.
The weird thing is, I am actually happy right now, even with all of this crap.
And i hate complaining, but I also hate pretending everything is all right too.
So, I am going to start writing in my diary. OH and write that book.
This post is so unlike me, it surprises me.

My Hands are Holding You

So last night I went to a concert. Which i thought was pretty fun, becuase we got pretty good seats, which was probably worth it becuase we had to wait in line a pretty long time! But it was good. not my favorite concert, but still good. Even though I love Hawk Nelson, I think MercyMe was my favorite, that song "God You Reign" is like my favorite! And "By Your Side" by Tenth Avenue North is just about the sweetest song i have ever heard. And it made me all excited for creation! I cannot waittt!

Sarah: "the only sitting we got to do was on the toilet for like five seconds." haha!

thank-you Linda for making it happen!

So, yeah, i thought that one thing didnt apply to me. But it did. And it kind of sucks, but maybe this is a good thing. Maybe it helps me get back on track a little bit? Like, willl it make me stronger? It was kind of inevitable, but yea, I am mad about it. Hopefully I wont blow up at anything or anybody cuz that would just make things worse... but yea. Its not the same. And I also learned a few things about myself, which I dont know if they are good things or not. But I will work on making it positively good.

I know this doesnt make any sense, but I really needed to write it down someplace.

On the plus side? One checkmark off my spring break to do list!

Get Back on Track: check.

I just hope i can continue to make this work!

Spring Break Banter

So, i am done with winter quarter! Thank goodness, i loved it, but i am so ready for spring break! I have to admit I am a little bit nervous about my political science final, that is one class i really have to well in! I hate waiting for grades, I really do.
Jaclyn is gone and so is Gina. I am loving this ridiculously quiet night.
And since my internet went off, and I wasnt able to get my homewor done, I didnt do my drive! So that is definetely on the agenda for tomorrow. I hope it wont be put off again, I just want to get it over with!
On another note, I am thinking about writing a book. A fantasy one, because even though I feel like such a nerd when i say it, I love those types of books! It would be a lot of work, but i think its something I could do, who even cares if it gets published or not? I wrote a book! Its just a thought, but I think I might do it?
I dont know. I always have these ridiculous goals, and in two days I completely forget about them. It would be so awesome though!

Goals this spring break:

1. Think about writing book.

2. Get back on track.

3. Tannnn! (haha like that will happen!)

4. Learn Liebestraum

5. Finish book list

6. Do something memorable

its about time

Im thinking that it is pretty nerdy to be having a blog. Especially since I write on here pretty much a lot. But I actually really like it, its good to have stuff get out there! Even though I am pretty sure nobody reads it, its kind of cool to look back and think about what on earth I was thinking when i wrote it.
so thats basicallly why i have a blogg..
Finished with my second quarter at clark tomorrow! thank goodness, psychology was killing me. I did better than i thought i would though, and my parents are super gracious about it.
But i am sad about sociology being over. that was a fun class! even if i did have to wear a red leotard with gold beads, and touch noses with somebody i didnt know, it was a pretty awesome class! Kyla, we need to hang out over break kk?
oh and i am hopefully getting my lisence tomorrow! I guess its about time, but i think my parents like to put things off, but they cant wait for me to get a job so whatever...
ok. im sorry. I love my mom and dad so much, but it really took me a long time to convince them to get it.
but it doesnt matter! becuase tomorrow i am finally going to get it! :]]]]]

i dont think im deep like that.

YESTERDAY:
1. I found a dime in my shoe. well kind of. It really was on my foot. Mandie found it while i was shaking out my shoe while I was trying to find whatever it was that was in my shoe. but it was still on my foot. Basically, i found money in my shoe.
2. Me and Mandie walked through the AA buildings that really remind me of a spaceship! And we went to the top and dtropped the dime. Then this old lady came and grabbed it, but hse put it back before we could accuse her of theft.
3. I figured out how to crack the lockers at the Clark bookstore. that was by accident though. But I got a lot of change :]
4. i had a two hour ball room dance final! And the weird thing is I actually enjoyed it. now I think it would be awesome if i could become a professional salsa dancer.
5. got free ice cream at O'Bradys!
6. hid behind a big orange cone. becuase Mandie told me too, and embarassed myself to death.
7. decided that I will collect an infinite amount of something that I got yesterdya that only Mandie and Heidi know about. haha!
8. lived without the internet. AGAIN.
9. bought a bikini.
10. bought a yucky sandwhich, that I will never get again.
11. Excersized for like three hours.
1. Studied for my psychology final that I had today.
OH and a couple of days ago i had an interview at subway. He really reminds me of Mr. Blackmar for some reason! (haha love camm!)
OH and yesterday me and mandie went walking and three guys hit on us in like five minutes. Which makes me think that mandie is extremely gorgeous becuase that never happens when I walk by myself!
and thats basically my life right now :]

Happy Days

I am going shopping today! I need to buy these jeans at Aeropostale.
I dont know why, but i am just so happy today!
maybe its cuz i got a lot of sleep?
i worked out a buttload yesterday. that was nice. I am going to do it again today.
and i have a major sociology project due, and an assigntment for political science, a quiz that i forgot to do, two study guides for a big test in sociology, and a test in psychology. And finals next week! i have my work cut out ofr me i think....
bhaha. i hate "follow your heart" btw. its a load of crap.
love you guys:]

Jaclyns Post

i needed something like this:

"my girlfriend told me i should be more affectionate. so i got two girlfriends."
"psychiatrists say that one out of five people are mentally ill. if four of your friends are ok, then you're the one." (I saw this at Wakes for the first timee bhaha).
" if you can stay calm, while all around you is chaos... then you probably haven't completely understood the situation"
"is it true that cannibals don't eat clowns because they taste funny?" (this one is Jaclyns favorite.)
"nevermind the damn whales. save the people!"
"3 out of 4 americans make up 75% of the population." (this isnt funny. but jaclyn thought it was HILARIOUS.)
"There's no such thing as gravity... the earth sucks"
"Eat a beaver, Save a tree." ( bhaha.)
"If life hands you lemons... then that's really wierd because it's just a board game. How can it hand you something if it has no arms? And where did it get the lemons anyway? Ponder this" (JACLYNS ABSOLUTE FAVORITE!!)
"I need someone really bad... Are YOU really bad?"
"it's not premarital sex unless you're planning on getting married."
kkk. so these were all jaclyns favorites. she was just too embarassed to put them on her blog so I did it for her.
love you darllllinnggg :]

simple can be big (deeeeppppp thinking)

So yesterday I went to see "Sound of Music" for CYT, and it was really good! I love everybodys voices, it just makes me jealous I cant sing like that. But it was very good, they really do greta on their productions! And I bought this really adorable dress with big buttons too! And I bought hair dye, Ive been needing to do it again. But thats basically all I did this weekend.. everybodys been sick so my chore chart has gone infinitely up.
But its also given me a lot of time to give some thought to things. (thats what I do when I have nothing to do, I kind of daydream or think very deeply-which definetely doesnt happen as often as the daydreaming haha). Sometimes i think that people put too much emphasis on the deep spiritual things that are happening in their lives. I think that they are very important, and I think its amazing when it happens, but I think that if you are expecting yourself to grow in Christ, those things arent going to happen as much. I think he expects you to rely more on him, and rely more on faith than on the emotion that comes along with it. Although I think it is a big part of it, I highly disagree with the fact that "being filled up with the Holy Spirit" and "falling to my knees in worship, a sign of total communion in God" is a sign of spiritual growth like everybody says it is. God wants you to trust and rely in him, and i think that these types of things take away from being able to do that, and from the bigger perspective of our relationship in Christ.
And then I thought about how people get encouraged. Lots of people get encouraged by Chicken Soup for the Soul, becuase they are simple stories, and heartwarming. (I love those stories, but they make my mommy cry, which makes me cry every time i read them.) Lots of envangelists and speakers are amazing, when they say "you are in the house of God tonight! May you be filled with the Holy Spirit, and walk out of this place with a fire for him, and a passion for his Grace!" like in so many conferences. I enjoy them so much, and i really feel a passion while I am there, and for a while after I leave. But eventually that goes away. And then Im left the same way I was before. But the stories, those heartwarming stories are what I remember. I know lots of people that go to these conferences for excitement, (i love that part about them, especially the worship! The worship is AMAZING. By far the best part about it!), but i think thats how they feel they are getting their relationship with Christ. I think if you want to leave an impact on someone or encourage them, tell them a heartfelt story. And not one where you fell on your knees in worship, becuase honestly, that doesnt really show Christs love. Share about the time when God really blessed you, with little things. And how happier it made you feel just by bing there and experiencing it. I guess what i am trying to say is, the simple things are much more encouraging than the big things.
Simple things like what happened this week! Brianna, I think that was a really good idea to do worship this week :]
And thats basically what I did this weekend! teeheee :]]]]]

Peanut Butter and Cheese Sandwhich

Listening to: Right Round by Flo Rida

I heard this really cute song on the way to school yesterday, and not only was it good musically, but it was actually had pretty good depth! Its called Britney by Bebo Norman, and it talks about Britney Spears, and instead of making fun of her like most Christians do (you have to admit it, we do!) he talks about loving her, and how she needs Jesus just as much as everybody else. It was like a "whoaa" moment for me, cuz I dont think I've ever really thought about it that way. but its definetely a good point- I think we as christians tend to overlook that.
OH is it too much to ask for no DRAMA?!
I seriously cant wait until Im an old person. That way I can just sit watch the kids freak out and be all dramatic and LAUGH. Because I would be mature, and that wouldnt HAPPEN to me. I wish that moment would come sooner.
haha, ashleys peanut butter and cheese sandwhich! I should try it, maybe it will be good....? since peanut butter and cheese are two things that I am hopelessly addicted to!

Tomorrow: School, youth Group, STUDY, and one other thing that I know that I am forgetting.

Definition: I Confess

Listening to: The Hunger by Fireflight

I love Red's new album! Its quite amazing, I am just so glad that they havent lot there touch they had in the last album. Becuase that happens quite a lot. Bands come with their first album which is GREAT than they change their sound to conform to the crowd, and their next album sucks. Except for Skillet. Their first album sucked. And Haste the Day, and Keane, and only a few others. But it is mostly the case that they DONT.
A great song? Birds by Kate Nash: sweetest song I have ever heard! And rather funny too, especially the last part.
So we did this worship song, that was called a "Beautiful Scandalous Night". It was a beautiful song, and I really liked it! Except for the name- definetely doesnt sound like a worship song. Sounds kind of like a hook-up. And the words were fine, I just think they should have defined it differently. Really beautiful though!
I cant wait until summer! This one is going to be awesome. my summer agenda:
1. Go to Ariels VBS. Hopefully get last years amazing kids.
2. Go to Creation (this time with Mandie and Jaclyn).
3. Go to California with Mandie!!!
4. Family Vacation somewhere.
5. Vistas VBS.
6. Coldplay Concert!!!
7. Seal Rock Campout.
8. Youth Group stufff.

And then other stuff I cannot think of! Its going to be amazing. I just have to find time to do all of this, with my job. ahaha.

Something Useless?

Listening to: You Know I'm No Good by Amy Winehouse

So I got out of a test early in sociology, and since nobody has this break, I can do this!
(I am pretty sure this is the lamest thing i have ever done....)

Mr. Gibbs: Then, on the fourth day, he roped himself a couple of sea turtles, lashed ‘em together and made a raft.
Will Turner: He roped a couple of sea turtles.
Mr. Gibbs: Aye. Sea turtles.
Will Turner: What did he use for rope?
Jack Sparrow: [from beside them] Human hair.[pause]
Jack Sparrow: From my back
~ahaha.

OK you guys, you know what? You're nuts. You're all nuts. You've been focused so hard on making it, you forgot about one thing. It's called the musuc. And I don't even care. You know what? So what. I don't want to hang out with a bunch of wannabe corporate sellouts. I'm gonna form my own band. And we are gonna start a revolution. Okay? And you're gonna be a funny little footnote on my epic ass. Dewey
~love that movie.

Siegfried: How do I know you're not from CONTROL?
Maxwell Smart: If I were from CONTROL, you'd already be dead.
Siegfried: If you were from CONTROL, YOU'D already be dead.
Maxwell Smart: Neither of us is dead, so I'm obviously not from CONTROL.[long pause]Shtarker: That actually makes sense.
~!(I hate this movie. But this part was pretty good :])

Dolph! Go get the Helicopter! And Keith! Change your name! It's not very scary sounding and I get embarrassed saying it!
~hehe

Last time I looked in the dictionary, my name's Ron Burgundy. What's your name?
~best pickup line EVER.

Don Hey, Napoleon. What did you do last summer again?Napoleon Dynamite I told you! I spent it with my uncle in Alaska hunting wolverines!

Bride Wars and Olive Garden

Listening to: Something Special by Colbie Callait

Today I am going to go with Mandie and Heidi to Olive garden (it was weird, the first time I typed that I accidentally typed Love Garden... I have no clue why!) and then we are going to go see Bride Wars. Terah told me today that it was pretty predictable, and it was just ok, but I am going with high expectations, becuase it sounds adorable!
Me and Mandie both blow-dryed our hair today, and it reminded me of last week, when the power went out on the upstairs floor of my house, becuase we did it at the same time. THAT was funny.
I am so tired. I am waiting to leave Clark, but I am too tired to do anything else. Its too bad ihave to study for a test tonight, and then with the all nighter tomorrow. I should buy some rockstars before that. Or just go to bed i think.
Doesnt it seem like everybody is getting sick? It does to me- which is sad, becuase I get sick ALL OF THE TIME. Wonderful.
Tomorrow: All nighter at church! School, Sociology Test.

Us=Goody-Two Shoes

Listening to: Shoreline by Deas Vail
"not much is up. does that answer your question?!"
hehe. I feel really bad about that, that wasnt even meant to be rude! That makes me feel really terrible! I just didnt have a voice for a little bit, so it came out as a croak, and you didnt hear me the first time. So thats why I said the rude thing, which wasnt actually supposed to be rude! :]
OH today me and Mandie changed the channel in the game room at Clark to an evangelist channel. Well, actually that was just me. And some people apparently werent happy with that. I mena come on! Just because it plays christmas music in the middle of february, doesnt mean that you can change it when I really LIKE christmas music. I mean, they have been around for many years. You gotta love the classics.
So Mandie married Edward. In the game of life, and invented a new ice cream flavor! Pistachio raspberry nutcake. And I married James McAvoy, and had a son named Frederick. We did this while skipping class, which Mandie felt incredibly guilty about, and made me feel horrible as well, becuase i said she should, and even though its not really a wrong thing to do here, it tore us up, especially Mandie.
Yes Mandie, we really did skip class.
TONIGHT: Youth Group.
TOMORROW: more school. no skipping class. Valentines Day date with Heidi and Mandie. (Bride Wars, and Olive Garden!) Study for Sociology test. Wonderful.

Of Cha-Chas and Ghost Stories

Listening to: American Boy by Estelle ft. Kanye West

So today was a let down after the amazing three-day weekend. It wasnt such a bad day though; nothing spectacular happened it was very mainstream.
I learned the Cha-Cha today in ballroom dance. Acutally i had learned it before, I just learned a new routine today. And we danced most of the hour to American Boy (which is why it is stuck in my head right now) and I really dont like that song lol. Its not really a great song to cha cha to either. I guess i dont even like ballroom dance that much... its not really me, but thats ok, cuz its an easy A!
Oh the weird thing is we talked about Cha Cha today. I love that... what would you call it? Its not a place. I guess its a service, but for what? never mind.
So its very stressful coming up with new classes for Clark! I have no idea what Im going to take. Except for Chemistry, and English 102. Any ideas anybody? I could really use them!
So um, I think the bachelor is an awful show. The people have bad morals, and guys and girls alwyas choose the most attractive. Still, it is quite addicting. Which is really emabrassing to admit! I have no clue why I am even writing this.
OH today I went into a bathroom stall that had "redrum" written on the side. Right i after I read those words, a kid screamed in the bathroom next to me. Now, I love kids, I want to be a teacher for that reason, but that one kid... my kids are NOT going to be like that. Me and Mandie freaked out, swearing that that kid was going to murder us... I dont think he will though.

NEW RED CD IS OUT:INNOCENCE AND INSTINCT (I would already have it right now, if Corban would let me burn it! haha jkk:])

This Weekend

Listening to: Angels by Within Temptation

So this weekend was rather unexpected. I have been procrastinating, and my room is a MESS! And since my aunt is visiting today, I should probably clean it up. Instead I am doing this.
So lets just say the three day weekend is definetely a blessing :]
OH yesterday I watched Penelope! Its one of my favorites now, I do love it. James McAvoy definetely made it all better :] Can i just say i have found a new celebrity crush? And Chrstiana Ricci was shockingly decent too. And the story is really cute... its just an all around good movie i think.
We also played Scattergories yesterday, it was hilarious. Gina has an extermely strange mind, there are several quotes that I must share:
"I think that raising people from the dead is an extermely bad habit."
"HEY HEY HEY its FATTTT parents coming home."
"Youre not supposed to boss me around like that- youre only supposed to boss me around when I need SAFETY."
She said a few other things that would are rather inappropiate, so I will not share them. It does scare me though, that she has this confused of a mind at only ten. I sincerely hope i had nothing to do with that...
In addition, my dog jumped on me, and startled me so much I threw my mp3 player across the hall... yea, its pretty much destroyed. That does not make me happy either. But, the thing is I still love her. I just hate that she did that.
One amazing thing did happen this weekend though. and i will never forget it. maybe things will turn for the better, it was something I really needed.
I think i will go clean my room now. Love you guys! :]]]]