Ginas Survey (bahhaha!)

1. What is your occupation right now? Student
2. What color are your socks right now? pink and white stripes and it is awesome!
3. What are you listening to right now? Pink So what?
4. What was the last thing that you ate? my dinner taco soup!
5. Can you drive a stick shift? well i sure hope not!
6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Michelle
7. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Duh Yeah!
8. Where would you like to go on vacation? Egypt! *doing the egyptian dance*
9. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? FOOTBALL! GO SUPER BOWL!
10. What is your favorite drink? Starbucks! look a snail!11.die or hilight your hair?highlight my hair with sky blue! i am going to do that when i am 14 it will be the awesomest thing on earth!r favorite food? no actually i am sick of that but i love ice cream and...gummy bears!
13. What is the last movie you watched? uhh.... does Icarly and sponge bob count?
14. Favorite day of the year? fri. the 13 i always watch creapy movies and eat......GUMMY BEARS!
15. How do you vent anger? Screaming screaming and more screaming ugh i hate it when i am going through pub.16. favorite toy as a kid? Big bird! no actually i was so freaked out of him i would scream so loud! actually it would be.... well alot of stuffed animals!
17.. What is your favorite season? idk? winter cause chirstmas and spring cause easter summer because summer vacation and fall becuase my b.day is on it!
18. Cherries or Blueberries ? Cherries! what would you do without them! because bluberrys look like guts when you open them.... but cherries aren't better then GUMMY BEARS!!!!!!!!!
19. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? Ya e totally! who wouldn't?
20. Who is the most likely to respond? Kenzie Vanessa maddison and others... but those 3 i will know for sure!
21. Who is least likely to respond? my sises!
you have been with ur family in the same house for:all of my life! i kno it sucks!
23. When was the last time you cried?
dont tell....dont tell.... BUT GUMMY BEARS MAKE ME HAPPY AGAIN!!!
24. What is on the floor of your closet? every single piece of my clotheing!
25. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending to? Michelle ment her when i was 2 months old! then it would be kenzie!
26. What did you do last night ? ate popcorn and watched monty python!
27. What are you most afraid of ? GETTING BURIED ALIVE!!!!!AND SFERING OR DROWNING! but that doesn't stop me from swimming or eating gummy bears!
28. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers ? Cheese burger BABY!!!!! NO STOPPING ME!
29. Favorite dog breed ? pomeranian and Chiahha
30. Favorite day of the week? Saterday DUH!
31. How many states have you lived in? 1 1 and 1 but i want to move to Gummy beart land!
32. Diamonds or pearls? diamonds because i already have pearl necklasses
33. What is your favorite flower? Roses, tulips and................. the GUMMY BEAR PLANT!

Caught You (With Another Man In My Bed)

AHHH! So today I woke up to the answering machine. The person started saying my name in a really deep voice, and saying I was a bad girl. I knew it was somebody from church (because I have a cold today, and I want to babysit), and at first i thought it was Craig, because I was supposed to show up for worship. Then I thought it was Shane because I was supposed to babysit, and I just slept all through the morning and missed his ride or something, but then another voice came on that said "Brianna, Brianna, are you sick? Are you sick?" And then I realized it was just Clayton and Andrew. Then Jaclyn came on too. But it was really funny and scary at the same time. haha!

So today I get to babysit! I havent babysat those two boys in a long time! They're so awesome.

I am so excited for next quarter. I have no clue why. But I think its going to be fun! Except for I am not excited for Lifespan Psych, because it just sounds rather borringg. I hope its not. I just hope hes better than my last psych teacher, hopefully?

SO THIS WEEK: I have to:

1. Go shopping with Jaclyn, Gina, and i think Kelsie is coming.

2. Finish that book.

3. Complete my list.

4. Hang out with at least fifty dozen people.

5. CLEAN EVERYTHING! I hate everything being messy, yet, thats what it always happens to be.

The pictures at the top are little Nathan. Oh, those are my legs! They look better now. haha

All I Wanna Do Is (Gun Shot Xs Three)

I finally saw my grandparents today! It was really nice. It made me all excited for me to go to Mexico again! I hope i can go next year with Gina, it would be so amazing. But Grandma said her youth group was going to build a house, and maybe I could do that instead.. I dont know! I guess Ill find out, I just really want to go:]
Also, you know that book I was talking about writing? I have an outline! Well, through the prologue. And I have three characters and an evil villain too. I did this while Jaclyn gave me four tatoos (yea,,, sharpie I think she was bored) and ate Mexican Candy.
Ginas watching the show iCarly, just saying... that theme song is so annoying! But its better than most of the Disney Channel ones. If I ever have a show, which wont happen, Ill have an AMAZING theme song. It'll be a top priority, even though the show would probably suck lol!

The best poicture ever! Jaclyn where are you....?

If You Dream of Home Tonight

Lately I have been spending a lot of time at home. With the Rosie. Yea, I love her to bits. But here are all of the things that have been ruined because of her:
1. My heels, my favorite pair! That one made me mad.
2. My pink flats.
3. My moccasins.
4. My most expensive jeans.
5. My application for Papa Murphys.
6. My mp3 player- and it was brand new too. That one made me cry for days.
7. A library book
And all this is not including the stuff of my brothers and sisters own that she has ruined.
Dont you just love puppies....
Anyway, today is my drive! Officially. I am so happy! I am also spending the weekend with Mandie at her REAL house. haha, I have gone to both of her grandparents houses more than her own lol! But if that doesnt happen, I will be babysitting tonight and tomorrow is either the beach or seeing my wonderful grandparents again! Cuz they are finally home!
Basically, I just have to get through my drive today, and then things will start to look up.
I miss Amber.

Concerning Worship and Youth Group

So last night was youth group which was really interesting since we talked about worship a lot, and other areas where I guess our youth group could benefit as well. Even though I didnt speak up one bit, I was completely bursting with stuff to say!

1. I think our youth group could use some changes (shorter lessons, and more interaction definetely!), but i also think the youth could use a change of mindset? I dont know if thats the right word... but thats what I think.

2. Small groups= Good Idea.

3. People talking to one another is not a form of worship. Thats focus on you, not on God.

However, I do think it should be a joyful thing. I dont think its a natural consequence, its just something that worship is. You should be joyful to praise your Lord Jesus, right?

4. I think talking is ok (who doesnt want to say a few words during the service?), but please leave the sanctuary when you are having a real conversation. THIS INCLUDES adults too. (Sorry, but Katie is right about the judgement.)

5. Melody and Joy made very good points about taking the oppurtunity that you have and using it to glorify God whenver you can. I totally agree with that!
6. I just want to say: when I worship, I feel like dancing sometimes. hehe!

7. I do feel that the lessons are very long, but Noah's idea about the students leading sometimes is a great idea! what better way to learn more than teaching it yourself?

8. I do think our youth talks during worship(at church), but I dont think that it happens all the time. For our youth group worship, yea... we didnt take it seriously. We should have though.

9. Linda, I love what you have done with our youth group, and we learn a lot from you. I dont think its fair to you that you are the one who had to tell us this, when I think the parents should be the ones that do it. It isnt your responsibility at all, it is the parents I think! It puts a lot of pressure on you that shouldnt even be yours.

10. Why dont we do a section on purity? Lets talk about sex! haha just kidding. But i think it might be a good idea.

Well this is what I think. I definetely have more deeper thoughts about it, but I dont think i should say a lot of it. It just feels good to get my ideas out there, even though a lot of them may be wrong.

Tribute to Leotas Garden

I just realized that I have a love for old things. Like antiques, and books, old houses and even stories about elderly people! I love these things. Gardens, cooking and those types of things too. Maybe its becuase they remind me of my grandparents, and I really miss them. I have some of the most amazing memories with my grandparents, I think they are one of the best things God has blessed me with. I have decided that I am going to Mexico again with them next year, since its Ginas turn to go. It will be so much fun!

Oh and Easter! That will be fun. I love holidays too! I love it when the family gets together, although it doesnt happen very often. When everybody comes, my cousins and everybody, it is so awesome! I wish it happened more often. And the food is great! Rolls, and stuff like that. Its like the potlucks at my Grandmas church are the best potlucks I have ever been too. Somebody makes the best brownies. I have no clue who they are but they are amazing. (haha, green bean casserole Alyssa!)

And even though Jaclyn hates it, I love it when their friends say how grown up we are, and how much we look alike. Becuase I love their compliments. They always are very sincere.

OH, and the conversations! I love hearing about their past! They alwyas talk about how "back in the day" and stuff, but I really like to hear about that. It makes me wish I lived back then, instead of now. That would be so cool. And the other things they talk about, like their gardens, new recipies that they have tried, and about their friends and things.

And how my Grandams house looks with the cherry blossoms on that tree, and the strawberries that Grandpa alwyas gives us. And the creek, and all the bridges. And finding Grandpas golf balls. Hiding in the hedge. Walks down the road. Visiting their friends.

I really miss my grandparents.

I think when I am really bored, I get nostalgic. Oh well, at least its a more cheerful post than my last one :]

Hey World. Its Me.

So i know this is my second post today (pathetic I know) but i have more to say.
I like who i am. Im not a bad person, and I may not be the epitimy of popular, or even slightly popular, but that is basically who i am. Im tired of everybody trying to make tons of friends, and feeling that their only purpose in life is to be accepted by other people who make stupid choices and end up all just failing in the end. Where does it get you?
Nowhere.
And I think i may need a diary, becasue there just is a lot of stuff that I cant say on here, that I want to get out so bad.
The weird thing is, I am actually happy right now, even with all of this crap.
And i hate complaining, but I also hate pretending everything is all right too.
So, I am going to start writing in my diary. OH and write that book.
This post is so unlike me, it surprises me.

My Hands are Holding You

So last night I went to a concert. Which i thought was pretty fun, becuase we got pretty good seats, which was probably worth it becuase we had to wait in line a pretty long time! But it was good. not my favorite concert, but still good. Even though I love Hawk Nelson, I think MercyMe was my favorite, that song "God You Reign" is like my favorite! And "By Your Side" by Tenth Avenue North is just about the sweetest song i have ever heard. And it made me all excited for creation! I cannot waittt!

Sarah: "the only sitting we got to do was on the toilet for like five seconds." haha!

thank-you Linda for making it happen!

So, yeah, i thought that one thing didnt apply to me. But it did. And it kind of sucks, but maybe this is a good thing. Maybe it helps me get back on track a little bit? Like, willl it make me stronger? It was kind of inevitable, but yea, I am mad about it. Hopefully I wont blow up at anything or anybody cuz that would just make things worse... but yea. Its not the same. And I also learned a few things about myself, which I dont know if they are good things or not. But I will work on making it positively good.

I know this doesnt make any sense, but I really needed to write it down someplace.

On the plus side? One checkmark off my spring break to do list!

Get Back on Track: check.

I just hope i can continue to make this work!

Spring Break Banter

So, i am done with winter quarter! Thank goodness, i loved it, but i am so ready for spring break! I have to admit I am a little bit nervous about my political science final, that is one class i really have to well in! I hate waiting for grades, I really do.
Jaclyn is gone and so is Gina. I am loving this ridiculously quiet night.
And since my internet went off, and I wasnt able to get my homewor done, I didnt do my drive! So that is definetely on the agenda for tomorrow. I hope it wont be put off again, I just want to get it over with!
On another note, I am thinking about writing a book. A fantasy one, because even though I feel like such a nerd when i say it, I love those types of books! It would be a lot of work, but i think its something I could do, who even cares if it gets published or not? I wrote a book! Its just a thought, but I think I might do it?
I dont know. I always have these ridiculous goals, and in two days I completely forget about them. It would be so awesome though!

Goals this spring break:

1. Think about writing book.

2. Get back on track.

3. Tannnn! (haha like that will happen!)

4. Learn Liebestraum

5. Finish book list

6. Do something memorable

its about time

Im thinking that it is pretty nerdy to be having a blog. Especially since I write on here pretty much a lot. But I actually really like it, its good to have stuff get out there! Even though I am pretty sure nobody reads it, its kind of cool to look back and think about what on earth I was thinking when i wrote it.
so thats basicallly why i have a blogg..
Finished with my second quarter at clark tomorrow! thank goodness, psychology was killing me. I did better than i thought i would though, and my parents are super gracious about it.
But i am sad about sociology being over. that was a fun class! even if i did have to wear a red leotard with gold beads, and touch noses with somebody i didnt know, it was a pretty awesome class! Kyla, we need to hang out over break kk?
oh and i am hopefully getting my lisence tomorrow! I guess its about time, but i think my parents like to put things off, but they cant wait for me to get a job so whatever...
ok. im sorry. I love my mom and dad so much, but it really took me a long time to convince them to get it.
but it doesnt matter! becuase tomorrow i am finally going to get it! :]]]]]

i dont think im deep like that.

YESTERDAY:
1. I found a dime in my shoe. well kind of. It really was on my foot. Mandie found it while i was shaking out my shoe while I was trying to find whatever it was that was in my shoe. but it was still on my foot. Basically, i found money in my shoe.
2. Me and Mandie walked through the AA buildings that really remind me of a spaceship! And we went to the top and dtropped the dime. Then this old lady came and grabbed it, but hse put it back before we could accuse her of theft.
3. I figured out how to crack the lockers at the Clark bookstore. that was by accident though. But I got a lot of change :]
4. i had a two hour ball room dance final! And the weird thing is I actually enjoyed it. now I think it would be awesome if i could become a professional salsa dancer.
5. got free ice cream at O'Bradys!
6. hid behind a big orange cone. becuase Mandie told me too, and embarassed myself to death.
7. decided that I will collect an infinite amount of something that I got yesterdya that only Mandie and Heidi know about. haha!
8. lived without the internet. AGAIN.
9. bought a bikini.
10. bought a yucky sandwhich, that I will never get again.
11. Excersized for like three hours.
1. Studied for my psychology final that I had today.
OH and a couple of days ago i had an interview at subway. He really reminds me of Mr. Blackmar for some reason! (haha love camm!)
OH and yesterday me and mandie went walking and three guys hit on us in like five minutes. Which makes me think that mandie is extremely gorgeous becuase that never happens when I walk by myself!
and thats basically my life right now :]

Happy Days

I am going shopping today! I need to buy these jeans at Aeropostale.
I dont know why, but i am just so happy today!
maybe its cuz i got a lot of sleep?
i worked out a buttload yesterday. that was nice. I am going to do it again today.
and i have a major sociology project due, and an assigntment for political science, a quiz that i forgot to do, two study guides for a big test in sociology, and a test in psychology. And finals next week! i have my work cut out ofr me i think....
bhaha. i hate "follow your heart" btw. its a load of crap.
love you guys:]

Jaclyns Post

i needed something like this:

"my girlfriend told me i should be more affectionate. so i got two girlfriends."
"psychiatrists say that one out of five people are mentally ill. if four of your friends are ok, then you're the one." (I saw this at Wakes for the first timee bhaha).
" if you can stay calm, while all around you is chaos... then you probably haven't completely understood the situation"
"is it true that cannibals don't eat clowns because they taste funny?" (this one is Jaclyns favorite.)
"nevermind the damn whales. save the people!"
"3 out of 4 americans make up 75% of the population." (this isnt funny. but jaclyn thought it was HILARIOUS.)
"There's no such thing as gravity... the earth sucks"
"Eat a beaver, Save a tree." ( bhaha.)
"If life hands you lemons... then that's really wierd because it's just a board game. How can it hand you something if it has no arms? And where did it get the lemons anyway? Ponder this" (JACLYNS ABSOLUTE FAVORITE!!)
"I need someone really bad... Are YOU really bad?"
"it's not premarital sex unless you're planning on getting married."
kkk. so these were all jaclyns favorites. she was just too embarassed to put them on her blog so I did it for her.
love you darllllinnggg :]

simple can be big (deeeeppppp thinking)

So yesterday I went to see "Sound of Music" for CYT, and it was really good! I love everybodys voices, it just makes me jealous I cant sing like that. But it was very good, they really do greta on their productions! And I bought this really adorable dress with big buttons too! And I bought hair dye, Ive been needing to do it again. But thats basically all I did this weekend.. everybodys been sick so my chore chart has gone infinitely up.
But its also given me a lot of time to give some thought to things. (thats what I do when I have nothing to do, I kind of daydream or think very deeply-which definetely doesnt happen as often as the daydreaming haha). Sometimes i think that people put too much emphasis on the deep spiritual things that are happening in their lives. I think that they are very important, and I think its amazing when it happens, but I think that if you are expecting yourself to grow in Christ, those things arent going to happen as much. I think he expects you to rely more on him, and rely more on faith than on the emotion that comes along with it. Although I think it is a big part of it, I highly disagree with the fact that "being filled up with the Holy Spirit" and "falling to my knees in worship, a sign of total communion in God" is a sign of spiritual growth like everybody says it is. God wants you to trust and rely in him, and i think that these types of things take away from being able to do that, and from the bigger perspective of our relationship in Christ.
And then I thought about how people get encouraged. Lots of people get encouraged by Chicken Soup for the Soul, becuase they are simple stories, and heartwarming. (I love those stories, but they make my mommy cry, which makes me cry every time i read them.) Lots of envangelists and speakers are amazing, when they say "you are in the house of God tonight! May you be filled with the Holy Spirit, and walk out of this place with a fire for him, and a passion for his Grace!" like in so many conferences. I enjoy them so much, and i really feel a passion while I am there, and for a while after I leave. But eventually that goes away. And then Im left the same way I was before. But the stories, those heartwarming stories are what I remember. I know lots of people that go to these conferences for excitement, (i love that part about them, especially the worship! The worship is AMAZING. By far the best part about it!), but i think thats how they feel they are getting their relationship with Christ. I think if you want to leave an impact on someone or encourage them, tell them a heartfelt story. And not one where you fell on your knees in worship, becuase honestly, that doesnt really show Christs love. Share about the time when God really blessed you, with little things. And how happier it made you feel just by bing there and experiencing it. I guess what i am trying to say is, the simple things are much more encouraging than the big things.
Simple things like what happened this week! Brianna, I think that was a really good idea to do worship this week :]
And thats basically what I did this weekend! teeheee :]]]]]